Oh, I could make a lot of excuses -- real life getting in the way of my blogging, several talks and lessons I've had to prepare for during the last little while. I have been facing health issues, some of them old, and some new ones too.
I think of things to write about during the day (when I should be working), but then when I get home, I just haven't had the energy.
I'm not sure, but I may have been going through a mild bout of depression. Here is a list of symptoms of depression from the National Institute of Mental Health:
Depression
- Persistent sad, anxious, or "empty" mood
- Feelings of hopelessness, pessimism
- Feelings of guilt, worthlessness, helplessness
- Loss of interest or pleasure in hobbies and activities that were once enjoyed, including sex
- Decreased energy, fatigue, being "slowed down"
- Difficulty concentrating, remembering, making decisions
- Insomnia, early-morning awakening, or oversleeping
- Appetite and/or weight loss or overeating and weight gain
- Thoughts of death or suicide; suicide attempts
- Restlessness, irritability
- Persistent physical symptoms that do not respond to treatment, such as headaches, digestive disorders, and chronic pain
Health issues are at the heart of these feelings. I don't have any health issues right now that are life threatening (thankfully!). The health problems I am dealing with now are those that restrict what activities I can participate in, and in some cases are debilitating.
I have recently been having a lot of trouble with my back. I have had some back pain, and a lot of shooting pain and numbness in my legs. Right now I can't stand up or walk for more than about 15 minutes, until my legs start going numb.
My back has never been the same since I pulled that all-nighter back in October, when we installed a new server at work. I just way overdid it that day-and a night-and a day. And, as Clint Eastwood would say, "A man as got to know his limitations!"
After suffering with this problem, and some days I have hardly been able to walk, I finally was able to get the help I think I need. I was referred to the Intermountain Spine Institute for evaluation and treatment. After undergoing an MRI, I learned that I have 5 mildly bulging disks in my lumbar region, and pinched nerves due to stenosis in the last 3 lumbar vertebrae.
Tomorrow, I will be undergoing an EMG (Electromyogram) test. This will test the muscles in my legs to determine if they are receiving normal nerve impulses. I may also get some answers about the nerve damage to my feet that has been a problem since last May. I have a follow-up appointment with my Physiatrist to review the test results, and more fully discuss treatment options.
I have already started physical therapy to help strengthen my back and abdominal muscles, with the hope of being able to alleviate some of the back and leg pain that I have been experiencing. I have enjoyed the workouts so far. It it has been positive for me to be actually doing something about this problem. If nothing more, it is helping me to get exercising again. The exercise has helped my mental attitude, and has been empowering as well.
I want to take this opportunity to turn over a new leaf, and to shake things up. I want to get control over my health. Along with the various medical treatments I am undergoing, I want to focus on getting exercise, eating better, getting more (and better quality) sleep, and losing weight.
I know that's a lot of things to deal with. But I have to make the effort to change. It is worth it. I am 48 years old, and there have been times during the past few months that I have felt more like I was 68. I still have a family to raise, and things I want to do. Right now my health is preventing me from doing many of the things I enjoy.
One of the things I enjoy is blogging, and writing. I don't want to let that slip away either. So I am going to be posting more regularly from now on. My goal is at least once a week.
5 comments:
Glad to see you back in the mix. I too have a touch of medical issues at the moment; I had a couple of heart attacks this past week and I am going in for treatment daily, still waiting for feeling in part of my hand. We will have to keep praying for each other's steady improvement.
Oh, ouch, I am so sorry to hear about your back and legs.
How was the EMG? Any results back?
(I had one of those a few years back and I couldn't believe I was writing a check afterwards for the privilege of the neurologist sticking needles in my legs, feet, arms and hands--ugh)
Back pain is the very worst!
I love the new leaf. All the best with that.
I've been taking Ethan for walks in his wheelchair, taking advantage of this wonderful weather, and it is so great to be out and about, and I just feel SO much better.
I firmly with a lot of conviction believe in the power of physical therapy.
I wish you well on your new endevor.
Thanks for your comments everyone. It's nice to know people are still stopping by, even if I haven't been very regular at posting lately.
Hi TF:
I'm sorry to hear about your heart problems. I hope they get you the right treatment. I'll keep you in my prayers.
Tea:
The EMG test was really fun! I might have to write a whole post about it.
Needless to say, I felt like a human pin cushion by the time I was done.
Lisa:
We renewed our membership at the local county rec center. We have gotten the whole family out three nights a week. My wife and I are riding stationary bikes and walking on treadmills. Then I use the weight machines to do my physical therapy on.
Meanwhile, the kids are swimming in the pool, and having a great time while we are in the training room.
My physical therapist is also going to teach me how to do my back exercises in the pool. That will be fun too, I can be playing around with the kids in the pool, but still doing my PT as well.
Thanks for your thoughts and concern.
hey kiddo, it's good to see you back and writing. I am sad to hear about all the chronic pain and depression. Do whatever it takes to get back to your old self and we'll be here for you.
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